As you might know, our family was recently blessed with a baby boy, Jacob. He is truly an amazing baby, so sweet and adorable. I didn’t know I could love another child like I love my sweet 5 year old Anna but it’s true – I am hopelessly in love with this little bundle of joy!
But with this little joy came late night feedings and some sleepless nights. The first few weeks were sort of a blissful, sleepless blur. But then came the chaos. One morning, I was holding and feeding the baby while packing Anna’s lunch (yes, not recommended, but it was that or hear a screaming hungry baby cry :) ), I told Anna to put on her shoes for the third time while she is whining about not wanting to go to school. As I’m running to pack her book bag with lunch, field trip money and homework, I happened to step in fresh dog puke on our carpet. . .nice. This didn’t faze our dog Lucy though, who was barking at me to feed her again while pushing her bowl across the floor. Right then the baby spits up all over my shirt while my phone starts beeping, it’s a text from work – a work emergency! While holding the baby and forcing Anna’s shoes on her feet and hoping we wouldn’t miss the bus that morning, I glanced at my desk with my 2 page to-do list I had made days ago that had just a few things checked off. At that very moment, I wanted to scream, "SERENITY NOW!!!"
After I put Anna on the bus that morning, I came back inside and glanced in the mirror. I was a mess! My hair was all over the place, bags under my eyes, and I was wearing mismatched clothes (with spit up on them of course). Not only did I feel that my physical appearance was not so hot, I felt that my heart was not so hot either. I was irritable, crabby and feeling depressed that I couldn’t handle all that I was doing. So, that morning, I decided to put everything on hold that I had to do that day. My messy house, the ever growing laundry pile, work and volunteer stuff that had deadlines – they were all on hold. I just held my sweet baby and listened to what God had to say to me that morning.
During my time with God, I was reminded that in my life, I am the passenger, He is the driver. I am immediately became relieved. When you are not in charge and fully responsible, it lessens your worries and reminds you that only He knows the plans He has for us, not us! Instead of making a “to do” list myself, I’ve decided to pray over that list before making it. What does God want me to do today? What priorities are important to Him? Once I had that reminder of Him being in control, it gave me a sense of peace and positively changed my attitude. James 4:7 says, “Submit yourselves, then, to God. Resist the devil, and he will flee from you.” By completely turning things over to Him and submitting to Him, I am less vulnerable to the temptations of the devil. God also tells us in the book of Jeremiah, that He knows that plans He has for us, to prosper and give us hope and a future. I don’t have to do it all, I can just climb over to the passenger seat and say, “God, I can’t wait to see where you’ll take me today. :)”