I have discovered something new lately - that I am easily irritated. I know you are outraged by this revelation. You refuse to believe this. This is because you either have not lived with me or have not spent time with me outside the bubble of cheerful repartee. My children and husband bear the brunt of this. And to make matters worse, at the Christmas pageant I recently directed at the preschool where I work, our Director called me up to thank me and continued on to say that I had a “kind word for everyone” which only made me flashback with chagrin to about 20 minutes before when I had impatiently snapped at my husband.
I want to be known as a kind, thoughtful person - someone who thinks of others. But the killer of kindness is truly impatience, as we have all witnessed in the flurry of Christmas checkout lines. So, I am eager to rid myself of this sin. Impatient, even. :) The last week or so I have been aware of my propensity and have guarded against it but I am quickly realizing that while I can change what comes out of my mouth, only God can truly replace the thoughts in my head. So, I have to rely on God’s strength if I want a lasting change.
A great song that drives this home is “This Is the Stuff” by Francesca Battistelli. You can watch her video here.
Not in my own power but by God’s strength.